I thought I had worried my worry out. So to say. But, I still have tears at the drop of a hat. But, it’s an emotional time! I have a SENIOR!! So not sure it’s the worry, so much or just how much I love those around me and couldn’t imagine things any different than they are right now. As this hasn’t been one of our best years I was praying with the start of a new school year that it was sort of a new start in general for my family. Being Mak’s senior year I was hoping for the best!! But, if it is not one thing it’s always another.
I have already decided whatever my outcome from this morning’s 3 biopsies that I am getting through it with a positive attitude. If I have learned anything from all the inspiring women I have spoken with from breast cancer survivors or family with breast cancer or lump to women who have had the scare of breast cancer even, that they are all strong, hard driven women who are all very positive and inspiring women and with their strength remained positive through their experiences. I have also learned through speaking to these women that everyone’s experience is so different, but as a whole so alike. We all feel that same worry and anxiety and all have family and loved ones whom we care so much about and stand beside us as we face the unknown.
I made it the whole morning, NOT A SINGLE TEAR. Then As I walked out of radiology into a waiting room full of women from my age all the way up to a woman in her late eighties or early nineties, who all have their own stories, none of which I knew, but still crossed my mind, I smiled at them all, as I told my Grandpa I was all done and we could get out of there. That is when the older woman in the room got up. She approaches me with open arms and wraps them around me. She says, 23 year breast cancer survivor. God is with you no matter which way he leads you. I am proof you can do this. I am praying for you.” I was instantly in tears and knew she had been talking to my Grandpa. This woman who I have never met in my life just inspired me and touched a piece of me from all the way down deep and I knew from that moment, I want to be THAT WOMAN!!